*Verily, in the remembrance of Allah [swt], do hearts find peace.* - Al-Rad; Surah 13:28.

Tears fall and smiles fade, i raise my hands and i admit i'm afraid. I think about the life i've made; will this life be protected by Allah's [swt] shade?
I bow down to my Lord and as i prostrate, i see the light shine on the path so Straight. And i wonder why i struggle; why do i fall so deep and that's when my soul begins to weep.
I remember one day i made a mistake, i was confused and i forgot i'm only living for His sake. I let this dunya consume me, and i ask myself: when i rise up to my Lord, is this how i wanna be?
That's when the truth becomes clear and suddenly im shaking in fear, my heart begins to beat and beat and it's like i'm already touching the heat.
My tears dry but i still cry, as i beg for the forgiveness from Allah Most High; You are the Most Worthy, please shower me with Your Mercy. The Creator of the creation; Who put me here on a mission.
Deep inside i feel i'm failing, daily i'm struggling, i'm just falling under, i hit the ground and that's when i wonder, about this life i'm living; every breath i'm taking; every move i'm making; every chance i'm taking...
This life isn't mine, it's not something i own; i'm just a traveller in this world so unknown; this isn't a place i wanna call home coz i know when i leave, i'll be leaving all alone.
Tears still in my eyes, burdened with those silent cries; if my words don't say much then read the story in my eyes.
I see favour upon favour, moments that i savour, i try so hard making them last but everybody knows moments become a thing of the past.
And now as i sit straight, i can see the shadow behind the Gate. As my soul is reassured: "After hardship will always come ease", i smile because i truly know that "Verily, in the remembrance of Allah [swt], do hearts find peace."

Annual Stress Event 2k9

Haven't done one of these in a long while...boredom drives us to crazy places; places we've never known of before.

It's that time of the year again, exam's just round the corner and last minute revision is taking its toll. Stressing becomes a lifestyle, but with His help, we'll get through it. It's not about cramming 100,000+ facts and figures into our heads, but doing our best and...praying for the best.

I'm pulling myself into seclusion, trapping myself from the ones who matter the most to me. I'm hiding the fact that deep inside, i'm stressing like mad. And when some people realise, i deny. I keep thinking i can do it alone. Truth is, i need their help, their support and their prayers.

I'm gonna make a little promise to myself. I'm gonna start taking my own advice, and i'm gonna stay strong through it all. I'm gonna suffer a little to be happy later. So i'm gonna take it slowly, day by day and i'm gonna give it my best. In the end, i'll accept whatever happens, coz everything always happens for a reason. And after all, what don't kill you only makes you stronger.

And if we think these tests are tough, just imagine the test we go through every single day of our lives. May we always be guided the right way...