Thursday, 7 January 2010

Trying Is Succeeding.

It looks so beautiful outside; the snow falling so freely. I hope it sets so it lasts a little longer than the small flakes that just melt into a little drop of water. And I hope this feeling of serenity sets inside my heart too. It seems so peaceful outside; but there’s two little stray cats running around in the freezing cold and I wanna go out there and get them home. If I had one wish, I’d wish for all the suffering in this world to end. But I know I don’t have these kind of wishes; all I have is the power of prayers. And for sure, with the will of Allah [swt], this suffering will only bring peace and ease later in life.

There’s two ugly coursework’s sitting right at the back of my mind and right now, frankly, I just don’t care. I look back at the years and I remember during school days – primary; secondary… - how I’d take pride in my work; the amount of time I’d spend perfecting every sentence… and now, writing merely the title of my essay satisfies my understanding of the standards of a second year university student. I blame it on the education system and I blame it on my level of laziness which I can’t quite comprehend how I achieved.

Anyways. TwentyTen is upon us and they call it a new decade. But I swear a decade is ten years? If 2000 was the new decade and ten years onto that is when it’s 2011… :S Hhmm, I guess some things just aren’t meant to make sense. Or maybe it does make sense, if that makes sense? I dunno what’s happening. So. I think the past few months have shown me a lot and I’ve learnt a lot. As I reflect, I think of the bad changes and the good changes… I don’t wanna do one of those “ahh it’s been a great year; this year will be even better” thing… all I’m doing is delaying making a proper start on my damned coursework because I’m finding it SO hard. Truth. There was a time when I’d actually enjoy coursework but now… it’s like this passion has died in me, the ambitions lost and the dreams only remaining a dream…

I still think I should try… they say if at first you don’t succeed, try; try again. Persistence always pays off in the end and right now, I’m just gonna put that theory into test.

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