It looks so beautiful outside; the snow falling so freely. I hope it sets so it lasts a little longer than the small flakes that just melt into a little drop of water. And I hope this feeling of serenity sets inside my heart too. It seems so peaceful outside; but there’s two little stray cats running around in the freezing cold and I wanna go out there and get them home. If I had one wish, I’d wish for all the suffering in this world to end. But I know I don’t have these kind of wishes; all I have is the power of prayers. And for sure, with the will of Allah [swt], this suffering will only bring peace and ease later in life.
There’s two ugly coursework’s sitting right at the back of my mind and right now, frankly, I just don’t care. I look back at the years and I remember during school days – primary; secondary… - how I’d take pride in my work; the amount of time I’d spend perfecting every sentence… and now, writing merely the title of my essay satisfies my understanding of the standards of a second year university student. I blame it on the education system and I blame it on my level of laziness which I can’t quite comprehend how I achieved.
Anyways. TwentyTen is upon us and they call it a new decade. But I swear a decade is ten years? If 2000 was the new decade and ten years onto that is when it’s 2011… :S Hhmm, I guess some things just aren’t meant to make sense. Or maybe it does make sense, if that makes sense? I dunno what’s happening. So. I think the past few months have shown me a lot and I’ve learnt a lot. As I reflect, I think of the bad changes and the good changes… I don’t wanna do one of those “ahh it’s been a great year; this year will be even better” thing… all I’m doing is delaying making a proper start on my damned coursework because I’m finding it SO hard. Truth. There was a time when I’d actually enjoy coursework but now… it’s like this passion has died in me, the ambitions lost and the dreams only remaining a dream…
I still think I should try… they say if at first you don’t succeed, try; try again. Persistence always pays off in the end and right now, I’m just gonna put that theory into test.
There’s two ugly coursework’s sitting right at the back of my mind and right now, frankly, I just don’t care. I look back at the years and I remember during school days – primary; secondary… - how I’d take pride in my work; the amount of time I’d spend perfecting every sentence… and now, writing merely the title of my essay satisfies my understanding of the standards of a second year university student. I blame it on the education system and I blame it on my level of laziness which I can’t quite comprehend how I achieved.
Anyways. TwentyTen is upon us and they call it a new decade. But I swear a decade is ten years? If 2000 was the new decade and ten years onto that is when it’s 2011… :S Hhmm, I guess some things just aren’t meant to make sense. Or maybe it does make sense, if that makes sense? I dunno what’s happening. So. I think the past few months have shown me a lot and I’ve learnt a lot. As I reflect, I think of the bad changes and the good changes… I don’t wanna do one of those “ahh it’s been a great year; this year will be even better” thing… all I’m doing is delaying making a proper start on my damned coursework because I’m finding it SO hard. Truth. There was a time when I’d actually enjoy coursework but now… it’s like this passion has died in me, the ambitions lost and the dreams only remaining a dream…
I still think I should try… they say if at first you don’t succeed, try; try again. Persistence always pays off in the end and right now, I’m just gonna put that theory into test.
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